It’s All Going to be Okay

Have you ever stopped to think about how commonplace the phrase “Trust God” has become?

We see it on home decor. We hear it from friends and family. We hear it in sermons. “Trust God.” “Have faith.” We say it so often that sometimes I wonder if we can say the words without actually stopping to consider what they mean.

Lately, I’ve felt the Holy Spirit asking me a very simple question: “Do you really trust Me?”

My immediate answer is, “Of course I do.”

Also, me: I have to figure out how this will all work out. Let me try to understand what you’re doing, God. Are you sure everything will turn out ok? When is this going to change?

And there it is. I trust God… but I still want to know the plan.

I surrender the unknowns to Him, only to pick them back up again. Each time, I begin to feel guilty. Guilty for questioning whether God will do it for me. Guilty for knowing His Word, knowing His character, and still battling with my flesh and the desire to understand, predict, and just…trust Him. 

You know the feeling?

Release it.
Then worry.
Then remember.
Then release it again.

And I’m learning that surrender isn’t a one-time decision.

To be honest, there are days I feel like a hypocrite, or even like the double-minded man James talks about. Then the Holy Spirit gently reminds me that wrestling with trust doesn’t mean I lack faith—it can actually be faith in action. 

Faith doesn't mean I never have questions. It means I keep bringing my questions to God.

1 Peter 5:7 reads: “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” It doesn’t say “You will never feel anxious again.”

It says cast it. Cast the cares. Cast the anxiety. Cast the questions. When you pick it back up, cast it again.

Psalm 13:1–2 is a beautiful example of faith in practice. David asks God, “How long, Lord?” He’s struggling; he doesn’t understand what God is doing, but he hasn’t stopped turning toward the Father. His questions were actually a part of his relationship with God, not the absence of trust within that relationship. 

I think I've been learning that, too. I've experienced His faithfulness in ways I can't deny. I've looked around and thought, “God, look at everything You've given me. Look at how You've carried me.”

And then five minutes later: “God, this is really hard.”

You know what, though? Both can be true. Gratitude and struggle can exist in the same heart. You can have faith and still have moments where your mind gets noisy.

That doesn't make you a crappy Christian. That is faith in practice.

Because the truth is, even if I knew exactly what was around the corner, there would probably be something else for me to worry about. That's my fleshly nature. I want to understand. I want to prepare. I want to know how everything is going to work out.

But God doesn't require me to know the plan before I trust the One doing the planning.

So maybe trusting God is saying, “I don't know what is going to happen, but I know Who will be with me when it does.” I can bring God my unfiltered how, why, what, and when—as long as I never lose sight of the Who.

I am learning to rest, even when my mind isn't completely quiet. To accept today's grace instead of trying to live tomorrow today. To release what I cannot control, even if I have to release it again tomorrow.

That’s what my faith looks like in this season…

Not knowing tomorrow. Not understanding the plan. Just being faithful with today. Because with God, it’s all going to be okay.